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this is the end [16 Dec 2006|09:53pm]
so it has been a fun ride with LJ, but as all things must come to an end so must this... if you wish to keep up with what the kris is up too find my myspace... http://www.myspace.com/the_fallen_king

so farewell LJ you will be missed
See the Shape

it's been awhile [03 Sep 2006|02:17pm]
[ mood | tired ]

Wow it's been almost 5 months since my last post, damn where does all the time go???

So now where do I begin on how my world has been turned around on me, making me what I have become for I am afriad of how this scenario will end up.
For starters I am finally going to prove to the world that I am not a fuck uo by raising my child... yes that is right my girlfriend is pregnant which is causing mixed emotions but mostly I am excited to be givin this oppertunity to raise the spawn of me ( or as my buddy habit says "the antichrist"). Well along with that, I am living with said girlfriend and times are hard on us, but we are getting through it I mean hell what can we do otherwise, ya know.
so yeah, I figured that you all should hear this from my mouth, and since I know she will never read this I plan to ask her to mary me on halloween so expect a post on how that one goes lol.

on a more interesting note the other day I got a once in a lifetime oppertunity to meet the band godhead at a rare accoustic show/meet and greet. It rocked something fierce.

so yeah that in a nut shell is my life thus far. feel free to call me an idiot for I know this, but it is time to leave my mark and my legacy, cause I am only getting older.

untill again,

See the Shape

just another page in the book [08 Apr 2006|12:28am]
[ mood | confused ]

Allright so I suppose I should update this beast since well I rarely do, but I figured now would be as good as time as anyother, so yeah.
Ya know those times when you make a prediction on something and low and behold (granted may not be what you want) it becomes the truth, well that is the situation I am in right now. See I have had a thing for this one girl for a couple of weeks, and at first she seemed interested in me, but now after a while seems not. Well my preditcion ladies and gents was I had a snowballs chance in hell of being with her, and from how she has been since someone *points at titty* had to spill the beans on it I was right. I mean it has been so long since I even began a relationship with someone. The last few I have had were pre-established, so I dont know what to do, I mean do I continue with my trying to get to know her to try to become something, or do I just do what I normaly do and give up... SOMEONE HELP ME.

From what I have been told she has good reasons for not wanting anything to do with guys in general, being that something hella shady happened to her, but still I think I am a psudo-nice guy and possibly could help her. again IDK but well there it is what is going on in my world.


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random shit [06 Apr 2006|05:12am]
[ mood | tired ]

my name:

Who is the love of my life:

Where did we meet:

Take a stab at my middle name:

How long have you known me:

When is the last time that we saw each other:

Do I smoke:

Do I drink:

When is my birthday:

What was your first impression of upon meeting me:

Do I have any siblings:

What's one of my favorite things to do:

Am I funny:

What's my favorite type of music:

What is the best feature about me:

Am I shy or outgoing:

Am I a rebel or do I follow the rules:

Do I have any special talents:

Would you consider me a friend/good friend:

Would you call me preppy, average, sporty, punk, hippie, glam, nerdy, snobby, or something else (what):

What is a memory we have once had:

Have you ever hugged me:

Do you miss me...do you think i miss you:

What is my favorite food:

Have you ever had a crush on me:

If there was one good nickname for me, what would it be:

What's your favorite memory of me:

Who do I like right now:

What is my worst habit:

If you and I were stranded on a desert island, what one thing would I bring?

Are we friends:

Will you repost this so I can do it for you?

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woah [09 Mar 2006|11:54am]
[ mood | amused ]

the Peacemaker
Test finished!
you chose BX - your Enneagram type is NINE.

"I am at peace"

Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union with others and the world around them.

How to Get Along with Me

  • If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially don't like expectations or pressure.
  • I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this.
  • Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
  • Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge me gently and nonjudgmentally.
  • Ask me questions to help me get clear.
  • Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
  • Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
  • I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.
  • Let me know you like what I've done or said.
  • Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.

What I Like About Being a Nine

  • being nonjudgmental and accepting
  • caring for and being concerned about others
  • being able to relax and have a good time
  • knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around
  • my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good mediator and facilitator
  • my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and now
  • being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe

What's Hard About Being a Nine

  • being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive
  • being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
  • being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch of the mouth personally
  • being confused about what I really want
  • caring too much about what others will think of me
  • not being listened to or taken seriously

Nines as Children Often

  • feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant
  • tune out a lot, especially when others argue
  • are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves

Nines as Parents

  • are supportive, kind, and warm
  • are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective

Renee Baron & Elizabeth Wagele

The Enneagram Made Easy
Discover the 9 Types of People
HarperSanFrancisco, 1994, 161 pages

You liked the test? so please RATE it...
but remember! it had only two questions!!! ;-)

You are not completely happy with the result?!
You chose BX

Would you rather have chosen:

  • AX (SEVEN)
  • CX (TWO)
  • BY (FOUR)
  • BZ (FIVE)

  • My test tracked 2 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:

    free online dating free online dating
    You scored higher than 25% on ABC

    free online dating free online dating
    You scored higher than 32% on XYZ
    Link: The Quick and Painless ENNEAGRAM Test written by felk on Ok Cupid, home of the 32-Type Dating Test

    allright this is just nuts... two questions and... just wow
    See the Shape

    W00T [16 Feb 2006|04:17pm]
    Woot, I just found out that slipknot won thier first grammy for "Before I forget" which uber rox... YAY
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    Who am I [05 Feb 2006|05:40pm]
    [ mood | discontent ]

    Why is it I come to all of my worst conclusions at the most inaproprite times?
    Why is it that I stay awake at night and scream inside my head for hours?
    Why am I begining to become what I hate?
    Hell, why do I hate?

    Who am I and where am I going?
    Am I just stuck in this cesspool of my own creations
    Or, am I not stuck at all, but rather wallow in them for fear of change?

    These are the questions of my life.
    I ask them frequently
    Why I do, I do not know
    But it always ends up the same...

    I never get an answer

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    allright I guess I can make a "real" update [05 Jan 2006|03:29pm]
    [ mood | refreshed ]

    so ummmm... yea,hi everyone

    Sorry about the last "post" if you even call it a post, my explanation is i was wasted beyind belief and bored, ah 21 is a great number :)

    but so what is new in my life other than blockbuster being bitches and not giving me many hours, but that is to be expected. so yeah hence i need to find another job, but still wanna keep bb so I can enjoy the free rentals and discounts, ah five free rentals a week, whatever could I do, I am in heaven ;)

    actually i am looking for a job in a music store cause music being my passion and my lifesblood, would rock, speaking of music me and a D are gonna be laying a track down for his cd... prepare for some wicked dark shit he is gonna be doing his rap thing, with me doing the hook and chours, so we have been working on that a lot, and PMG is still forming being i had to forcably remove my drummer cause well he sucked, so at this point we are using a drum machine and a programer from millwaukee, but we still should have our album out sometime this year... hopefully.

    but yeah hope this finds everyone well
    peace out

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    WHATUP BITCHES [11 Dec 2005|02:01am]
    [ mood | drunk ]

    so yeah, long time no update, but shit not too much has happend... oh well though, I'm drunk as hell so WTF... hell i am prolly gonna forget that I wrote this muth fucka but still i guess I should say that I am alive... so yeah hi and bye bitches


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    hiya [24 Oct 2005|12:43pm]
    [ mood | awake ]

    October 24,

    one week left of burial chamber, and I am have to say this, I am gonna miss that fucking warehouse. I have met so many people that kick ass and well those who read this know that I love to scare the hell out of every one I can *insert demonic grin here* Plus I have met this chick named amanda, who is really cute, and I think has a thing for me since she invited me to come spend this week with her, but I can't being that well she lives hella far away from good ole omro... *insert a damnit here*

    but other than work life goes on here I get up every day do the same shit and well go to bed, it is truly a boring experience but I got the little things to look forward too, as in my b-day which is gonna kick some ass, being that I am going to milwaukee to visit a couple of friends I havent seen in a rather long time, and plus go to the bars and well... you know.

    Sorry about the long ass pauses between updates but I rarley get online anymore being that my computer is a pile of shit and I hate it with everything I am, why cant it die, so I can just reload everything, then possibly be content with that piece.

    well I hope this update finds you all well content in your lives as I am in mine

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    [03 Oct 2005|01:19pm]
    [ mood | bouncy ]

    Well I figured I would give a real update because well my last one was a piece of shit, but now it isn't like 2 in the morning and I am wide awake so here we go.

    Well I worked friday night at burial chamber, which was interesting considering the fact we were open for like 3 hours and only haad 3 groups, but i guess I did my job well, cause my leaad actor walked through it, and he came back around nd was all like that is the way to fucking do it, so i dunno.

    Saturday came my night to work blood city, I was in the toy store, and well i was skeptical based on the previous night on haveing very few groups come through, but I was wrong, we actually had a decent night, but it was fucking fun... I wish you guys could come up here to see these houses they are amazing.

    well i gotta run, so
    peace out,

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    hi [28 Sep 2005|11:28pm]
    [ mood | anxious ]

    well well well...

    i figured since i was fgone for so damn long that I might as well say hi because well i dunno. I wish i had a more interesting update being like damn near 2 months since my last post, but I really dont, I guess the only really cool thing going on is my job which I start on friday I amk working at the burial chamber, a haunted house in neenah, and by god it is gonna fucking rock... I will have pictures of my costume up as soon as I get some... well i guess that's it.

    peace out

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    [08 Aug 2005|01:57pm]
    [ mood | melancholy ]

    Let's go back to the start
    Like it use to be
    Before you fell apart
    And you blamed it on me
    Back when you were my friend
    Do you remember back then
    All the plans that we made
    Can we get back to thoes days

    Thoes days come every now and again
    No way I feel like this is the end but

    Always is in your eyes
    In always I realize
    That always is you and I

    Let's go back to the start
    Like it use to be
    Before your broken heart
    And your hatred for me
    Back when all this began
    Do you remember back then
    All the plans that we made
    Can we get back to thoes days

    Always is in your eyes
    In always I realize
    That always is you and I

    Is there any wonder I'm not right
    Where do we go now where do we go now
    Is there any wonder you wont fight
    Where do we go now where do we go now
    Have there been to many wrongs to right
    I'd say goodbye but

    Always is in your eyes
    In always I realize
    That always is you and I


    i dunnio this wsong just fits who i feel i have become...whenever i hear this song i put into prespective that i am singing it to myself.

    See the Shape

    Why? [31 Jul 2005|01:12am]
    [ mood | angry ]

    why am I subjected to shuch bullshit that shouldn't even bother me... well wait, I cant say that it shouldn't because it is some fucked up shady shit.

    welcome to my past 3 days.

    Thursday - went to the girlfriends school to hang out and such and to get a hair cut ( she is going to school for cosmotology) after she cut my hair, I then proceded to go to our friend Kola's house ( yes that is her real name...???wtf??) well kola wanted to get fucked up and I told her that I could get some people together and well have a party. well we party and talk and shit, and we return to my house where she procedes to pass out in my bed with me in it.

    Friday - Me and kola awake and just sit around my house till like 4:30 in the afternoon when we are to meet the g/f at the BP to chill. well she is there and all silent and shit the she gets a call where she has to watch her sister, so off goes the g/f leaving me and kola at BP. well another one of my friends shows up and asks if I would like to go up to appleton with him to picj up a friend, and being that is where kola lives we dropped her off. Now this is when the story begins to evolve, I should have figured something was going on when I got back to BP and my g/f was rubbing all up on this guy i thought was my friend, but I thought nothing of it, I mean she had given him back rubs before and shit, so it didn't even phase me. later that night i was i ended up having to help tripp close the store, which pissed me off, but I did it anyways. and plus the g/f was acting all shady and shit, so in a fit of rage I began to walk home when I was invited to go and hang out at our friend angels house. well on my walk home I realized that I needed to find out what was bugging the g/f so i turned around and headed back. by the time I got back she and angel with the "friend" where in the bedroom talking, and just as I was getting ready to leave she came out. well I get what was bugging her out of her and found out that I was "hindering her progress with her school and that she loved me to death but had to split up with me because of the fact that I was well again hindering her progress" now whjile she was telling me this she was all teared up and sad, I could tell that she didn't want to do it, but I also knew it was nessicary for her to finish school, so I gave her my slipknot hat as a promise that as soon as she was done with school we would pick up where we left off... I left and cried myself to sleep.

    enter today,

    I got up and was going to call her and tell her maybe we had taken things to far and we could work something else out because I didn't want to be without her, but being as such I got up like an hour before I had to babysit, I didn't. I get to the place that I babysit and started talking to devon about the seether concert on wednesday that I was going to and she wanted to come so we called angel to she if she could babysit for us for the concert. this is when I find out that after I left, in all of her so called distress not but like 10 minutes after I had left angel's, darcie(gf/ex) makes out with this guy that I thought was my friend... and from what I have been told it went further than just simple kissing (hickey on the neck and a bunch of other shit) so I blew up. i got throw babysitting, but made a phone call to darcie, telling her to be at BP at 9:30 cause I wanted fucking answers, well I got my answers... i guess it was because he was there and started kissing her and she just went along with it, not even trying to stop him knowing that I would find out. well we sat and talked from like 9 till 1 and she claims she is sorry for what she did, but fuck it she found one fucking place on my back where there was no knife and dug one in... now most of you know my trust issues and such and betraying that trust is well a mortal sin in my book, so yeah the entire night she was kissing my ass and such but things like that cannot be forgiven.
    so now I am stuck... do I attempt to be her friend, or should I just forget about her entirely???

    sorry for this, but I needed to get this shit out and right now you are the only people i think i can trust...so help a homie out, WTF should I do.


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    Back by popular demand [17 Jul 2005|11:59pm]
    [ mood | tired ]

    well god you fuckers grow on me... i tried to phase out and dissapear, but no, when ever I am having a shitty day I end up online hoping to talk to some one whom i care about and love... you really think I would leave you guys hanging, you cant get rid of me that easily, I am like the piece of shit that wont flush :) anywho, on with the nitty gritty so to speak. I had the sunday from hell to say the least, work sucked ass I speant my 8 hour day all by my lonesome no one to keep my entertained or help whe we were busy, oh well, I look at it this way, i now have enough time saved up from favors to take like a week and a half off just from favors lol. now it is like midnight here, and I am trying to talk to aslana on msn, but I have a feeling she is iggying me... hmmm other than that I am tired, my gf is pissing me off and I need a good ciggarette, so i am gonna leave this thinggy and call it a night.


    [_] go out with me?
    [_] give me your number?
    [_] kiss me?
    [_] let me kiss you?
    [_] watch a movie with me?
    [_] go to the hot tubs with me?
    [_] be my boyfriend/girlfriend?
    [_] have a fling with me?
    [_] get drunk and strip for me?
    [_] take me home for the night?
    [_] Would you let me sleep in your bed?
    [_] have sex with me in a car?
    [_] re-post this for me to answer your questions?
    [_] give me a piggyback ride?
    [_] let me come sleep with you in the middle of the night if I had a nightmare?
    [_] Lock me in your room and take advantage of me?
    [_] lick my cheek?
    [_] dance with me?
    [_] make me breakfast?
    [_] help me with homework?
    [_] tickle me to death?
    [_] let me tickle you?
    [_] stick up for me if I was being put down?
    [_] play strip poker with me?
    [_] say yes if i asked you out?
    [_] borrow a pair of my underwear if yours for some reason got ruined?
    [_] let me borrow your underwear if for some reason mine got ruined?
    [_] get wasted with me?
    [_] instant message me?
    [_] greet me in public with a long kiss?
    [_] choose your friends over me?
    [_] bring me around your friends and flirt with me?

    D0 Y0U...
    [_] think im cute?
    [_] think im hot?
    [_] get turned on by me or what i say?
    [_] want to cuddle with me?
    [_] want to spend money on me?

    ARE WE...
    [_] acquaintences?
    [_] friends?
    [_] in a relationship?
    [_] gonna have kids?

    AM I...
    [_] smart?
    [_] cute?
    [_] funny?
    [_] cool?
    [_] loveable?
    [_] adorable?
    [_] compassionate?
    [_] annoying?
    [_] great to be with?
    [_] attractive?
    [_] mean?
    [_] odd?

    HAVE Y0U EVER...
    [_] thought about me?
    [_] thought about a future with me?
    [_] thought about fighting someone over me?
    [_] found yourself wanting a kiss from me?
    [_] wished I were there?
    [_] had a crush on me?
    [_] had a dream about me?
    [_] been distracted by me?

    ARE Y0U...
    [_] in love with me?
    [_] gonna cry when I die?
    [_] missing me?
    [_] thinking about me?
    [_] going to repost this so that i will return the favor?

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    hello [01 Jul 2005|04:18pm]
    [ mood | melancholy ]

    well here we are a new day and a new update from me... I hope you fuckers aint forgot about me since my last post... shit i dont even remember when the hell that was, just been so damn busy with work and friends I haven't had much time to myself. Well all who know me know that I have always wanted a B.C. Rich warlock guitar, and well I bought one and I hope to have some pictures of me using it, I know very little even though I am learning (allbeit very slowly) vermillion parts 1 and 2 by slipknot.

    This time I have spent away from the internet made me realize how much shit changes and how much stays the same, and most of all who read this are happy in their own existance I might just phase out and concentrate on my life up here, because that is what matters most to me right now. I mean hell you guys are still some of my closest friends but I dunno, I feel seperated, not just by a mattter of miles, but by a thought of that I dont think you guys know who I am anymore, I mean shit so much has happened in the past few weeks where I cannot even begin to describe. I am finally content with my life here and I am actually starting to like it. I am becoming who I wanted to be, an artist. Being here has made my work has tremendously greatened and I have about enough material to start my band... granted it aint MTV friendly, nor radio friendly... shit it aint even friendly. Once I have final details I will share them with you guys, but my dream, my passion is comming into full swing, PMG is becoming a reality. (PMG = Post-mortem Gangbang)

    and I do have alot of you to thank, actually all of you guys that read this have influenced me more than I can say and I thank you.

    ya know, I think you guys are better off without me around, you seem to be so happy and I am glad.


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    Just call me boss tanaka BITCHES :D [10 May 2005|09:05am]

    Your Japanese Name Is...

    Kaito Tanaka

    and since I follwed the rules like a good little shit


    01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
    02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
    03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
    04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
    05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
    06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
    07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
    08. Put this in your journal.
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    Total slaughter...total slaughter... [06 May 2005|12:43am]
    [ mood | busy ]

    This is the
    agooddog speaking!I have totally been given free reign in Kris' journal to fuck with his layout.
    And since I had to snag it from a place and stuff for him, I think spamming his journal noting that I DID THIS FOR HIM
    is appropriate.  Because I rock hardc0re. *Sticks out tongue*

    He can delete this later if he wishes. But it's not everyday I get the chance to post in someone elses journal. XD

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    Ok so I lied [01 May 2005|02:53am]
    [ mood | impressed ]

    Yeah I sorta kinda said that it would be a while for my next post but I figured I'd post before I forget (no pun intended)
    Yes I have returned alive from probably the most brutal show I have ever been to, Shadows Fall, Lamb of God, and the masked 9 SlIpKnOt, cept only 8 of them played being that the bassist who is in the hospital (The Maggots are behind you Paul) anyways, I dont know much I can ramble on hre being that I am in severe pain and extremly tired. For those of you that dont know Slipkknot shows are up there as one of the most dangerous shows to go to, and to be honest it was the best one I have seen (it even topped manson, and that is scary)

    Well Tonight being April 30th it was the last night of the tour, so all three of the bands pulled out all stops and went apeshit causing much to my satisfaction massive pits. and well all three of them had some actually pretty funny jokes played on them, as in Shadows Fall came out to the Sanford and Son theme song, and a random Corey comming out with pretty much nothing on (his member was covered by something black an that was it for cloths) as he proceded to I guess the best way to describe it was "hump" the lead singer. Lamb of God on the other hand had to come out to the song" tiptoe through the tulips" which was funny as hell followed by I think was someone from shadows fall comming out and doing something I couldn't really see at the time, being that I was in the middle of a pit that had opened up.

    But the culmonation Was SLIPKNOT themselves, I mean they Played every fucking song that I have ever liked by them, and then some. Some Key tracks were; Vermillion Pt. 1 ( they showed the video to Pt2 which was fucking amazing) Before I forget, Heritic Anthem, People = Shit, Everything ends, Wait and Bleed, Surfacing, and of course Duality... there were others but I cant remember them, probably from the asshole that punched me in the back of the head, but meh IT FUCKING ROCKED!!!!

    Well I think I am off to sleep... hopefully to wake up and be pain free (yeah right)

    Good moring or good night take your damn pick

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    [26 Apr 2005|10:41pm]
    [ mood | calm ]

    -Mr. Moore
    - Raziel

    - the_fallen_king
    - gothic_killer666
    - killersmooth

    - My inability to make everyone in my surroundings happy
    - My weight
    - My Hair ( I want it red and black again)

    - No
    - Fucking
    - Clue

    - The direction of my life
    - That one day I will wake up with nothing or no one
    - The death of loved ones

    - Music
    - Video games
    - Music ( It's that fucking important to me)

    - Disturbed shirt
    - Blue JNCO jeans
    - Sox

    - Slipknot ( like there was any doubt)
    - Mindless self indulgence
    - Seether

    - Slipknot "vermillion pt. 2"
    - Mudvayne "Happy?"
    - Wednesday 13 "God is a Lie"

    - Get a band together
    - learn guitar
    - get a car

    - I am dancing like a rabid wolverine to the vengaboys "We like to party"
    - I feel empty and hollow inside
    - I'm single

    - Eyes
    - Personality
    - Nice tits ( j/k)

    - Play bass
    - Get away from this rotting cesspool I call my life
    - Dance like a rabid wolverine to the vengaboys "we like to party"

    - Vid games
    - Writing
    - Going to concerts

    - Take a shit
    - Leave Wisconsin and go wherever I damn well please
    - Smoke a grit

    - Gas station attendant (done that one... whoo hoo I am that much closer to my life goals being done :))
    - Musician
    - Writer

    - Italy
    - London
    - Hell, Mi

    - Kain
    - Damien
    - Cassandra (not because of someone that I shall leave un named, but I just like the name)

    - See the world
    - Become a musician
    - Get a little old lady to give me the finger

    - anyone
    - who fucking
    - Wants

    See the Shape

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