why am I subjected to shuch bullshit that shouldn't even bother me... well wait, I cant say that it shouldn't because it is some fucked up shady shit.
welcome to my past 3 days.
Thursday - went to the girlfriends school to hang out and such and to get a hair cut ( she is going to school for cosmotology) after she cut my hair, I then proceded to go to our friend Kola's house ( yes that is her real name...???wtf??) well kola wanted to get fucked up and I told her that I could get some people together and well have a party. well we party and talk and shit, and we return to my house where she procedes to pass out in my bed with me in it.
Friday - Me and kola awake and just sit around my house till like 4:30 in the afternoon when we are to meet the g/f at the BP to chill. well she is there and all silent and shit the she gets a call where she has to watch her sister, so off goes the g/f leaving me and kola at BP. well another one of my friends shows up and asks if I would like to go up to appleton with him to picj up a friend, and being that is where kola lives we dropped her off. Now this is when the story begins to evolve, I should have figured something was going on when I got back to BP and my g/f was rubbing all up on this guy i thought was my friend, but I thought nothing of it, I mean she had given him back rubs before and shit, so it didn't even phase me. later that night i was i ended up having to help tripp close the store, which pissed me off, but I did it anyways. and plus the g/f was acting all shady and shit, so in a fit of rage I began to walk home when I was invited to go and hang out at our friend angels house. well on my walk home I realized that I needed to find out what was bugging the g/f so i turned around and headed back. by the time I got back she and angel with the "friend" where in the bedroom talking, and just as I was getting ready to leave she came out. well I get what was bugging her out of her and found out that I was "hindering her progress with her school and that she loved me to death but had to split up with me because of the fact that I was well again hindering her progress" now whjile she was telling me this she was all teared up and sad, I could tell that she didn't want to do it, but I also knew it was nessicary for her to finish school, so I gave her my slipknot hat as a promise that as soon as she was done with school we would pick up where we left off... I left and cried myself to sleep.
I got up and was going to call her and tell her maybe we had taken things to far and we could work something else out because I didn't want to be without her, but being as such I got up like an hour before I had to babysit, I didn't. I get to the place that I babysit and started talking to devon about the seether concert on wednesday that I was going to and she wanted to come so we called angel to she if she could babysit for us for the concert. this is when I find out that after I left, in all of her so called distress not but like 10 minutes after I had left angel's, darcie(gf/ex) makes out with this guy that I thought was my friend... and from what I have been told it went further than just simple kissing (hickey on the neck and a bunch of other shit) so I blew up. i got throw babysitting, but made a phone call to darcie, telling her to be at BP at 9:30 cause I wanted fucking answers, well I got my answers... i guess it was because he was there and started kissing her and she just went along with it, not even trying to stop him knowing that I would find out. well we sat and talked from like 9 till 1 and she claims she is sorry for what she did, but fuck it she found one fucking place on my back where there was no knife and dug one in... now most of you know my trust issues and such and betraying that trust is well a mortal sin in my book, so yeah the entire night she was kissing my ass and such but things like that cannot be forgiven.
so now I am stuck... do I attempt to be her friend, or should I just forget about her entirely???
sorry for this, but I needed to get this shit out and right now you are the only people i think i can trust...so help a homie out, WTF should I do.